THAT tired old line...

After Saccharine's e-mail, I simply sent a note saying that while I would love to settle down, I refuse to just settle.

He didn't respond, and really, there wasn't much to respond to.

So, after a couple of days, I sent another e-mail saying, "So, are you just going to e-mail me every six months or something? Or is there actually something you want to say?"

Then it was the line. You know the one. Every spineless guy has used it at some point in time...

"I didn't think that I was good enough for you. And while I'm still not entirely sure that I am at this point, I would like the opportunity to let you make that decision. I'm very sorry for the way I handled things, and would love another chance. If thats not possible, I completely understand."

Now, he has, according to his profile, finished his degree and moved to a better area, so some improvements in his life have been made.

So, now what do I do? Part of me wants to forget this guy ever existed. The other part of me remembers how sweet he was before he wigged. He really was. He was dorky, and nerdy and completely nervous around me, but it was oddly endearing.

And I miss the Professor. I know nothing long term will ever come of him, but I just am soooooo drawn to him.

Oh, and there was another great guy who e-mailed me, but he also doesn't want kids. And, unlike Professor, he is saying never. I gave him the thanks, but no thanks, and he sent another great e-mail to thank me for telling him and that I am a beautiful woman and he knows I will make some guy very happy someday.

I wish I was as sure of that as he is.