Its over...

I was waiting for the hammer to fall, and it did.
Professor send me a "Dear Miss Bethie" e-mail. Parts were sweet, parts were jerky, but basically, he isn't over his wife, and there was no spark for him. Which is weird, because before he was worried there was so much spark so soon. But he assured me it was no reflection on me.

I am bouncing back and forth between a lot of feeling right now.

And part me is mad at myself for having had sex with him.
Part of me is glad it happened.
But I can't help but wonder if that is what caused to say there was no spark.
And it hurts.